lately i've been having sleep problem, i cant sleep and it involves hours of tossing and turning before i could get my eyes shut, and when i do, i cant get up as if im sewn on to d bed or something. wat disturbs me is the lack of sleep im getting ~ sigh. morning drive becomes extra tiresome, with the sun glaring and d never ending morning traffic. more reason for me to stay in bed...(wishful thinking)...

i've been doing a lot of thinking but bout nothing in particular and it gets very messy over d days. i mean, im not focusing on one thing because everything is a combination of many other things, im just as bad as my phone wire (those who have seen it would understand). jus thinking bout things doesn't solve it, it only affects me more but dats beyond my control. think bout it, how can u tell someone not to think over sumtin when its very disturbing u cant sleep without dreaming of it, its not like ders a 'thinking switch' you could turn off.

prolly due to my combination of endless dilemmas (i might be exxagerating a bit here), my hormones are somehow affected, because i hope its only my hormones causing 'pop ups' on my face. its not like im not used to 'pop ups' but not in this dose im getting (sob sob). my confidence has at least gone down 2 notch, as if its not low enough already ~ sigh.

right now, i could really use a dose of magical powers, perhaps to help me get a good slumber, or even maybe to help straighten things out in my head, besides making my 'pop ups' vanish into thin air. yeah, 'if' only. if i could just have one wish, i wish i could speak my heart out without being judged, but in d world im in, its almost impossible...