sometimes i wonder (while trying to kill 30mins before heading home) if there such a thing as a desirable career? in my own definition, it means doing something you never get tired of, looking forward to get to work each day, enjoying every moment you're at it (enjoying the company doesn't count ok) and able to work honestly, by which i mean dedicating 8 full hours to the task(s). for me, there is no such thing. blearggh~

to date, i've worked less than 3 years and im already looking forward to retirement. i used to think that people who have studied hard for years and waste it all by not working isn't doing a very smart thing but now i beg to differ. these are the people who is actually doing themselves a favour. think of the stress they're spared, think of the satisfaction of raising a family full time, think of no deadline whatsoever. blissful.

a cousin of mine is planning to get married in a year or so and she happen to share the same disappointment where the work area is concerned to the extent "if ada orang kaya nak kahwin dengan i, i nak je so i dont have to work". at first i laughed at it, but it's true. i mean, unless of course if you're born rich, then you dont need a rich man to look after you otherwise, how else can you live not worrying about working for money?

i know work is a form of ibadah but unless if you do it honestly, sincerely and full heartedly, it doesn't do you much good. this could be a phase where i dont like my job, but someday i hope this'll change - it'll be either i learn to love my work or, i need to make someone love me enough to not lemme work. please dear Allah, please let either one of these prayer come true....(amin)....