tis month surely passed by in a blink of an eye, especially after d 3rd week but on the contrary, time spent at work doesnt seem like its moving at all! i've been dragging my feet everywhere, been thinking of interesting stuffs to do but...nothing, im still bored (and sleepy). the closer it gets to the long hols, the longer it seems to get to it. i wish im a lil more preoccupied, at least i wont feel like im dying of boredom.

anw, since im writing in here, i might as well share a lil bout my hols prep. to date, raya mood have yet to kick in, despite my raya costume arriving in the mail yesterday. dats d only new thing i got for raya tis year, no new shoes or bag or nothing, mainly because im trying to recover from the post wedding debt (hahahahahahahahahhaaha....gelak sbb kasi hilang rasa tension). oh, for d first time im celebrating raya (insyaAllah) as a wife. im not sure if theres gonna be any significant change (coz im celebrating raya with my side of the family) but i hope it'll mean something more than just my ordinary celebration. some things i look fwd to tis hols includes going back to penang (after a very long time) and meeting some relatives (haha, i dont look fwd to meet all, altho i cant choose family) and holding a bbq on d 2nd day of raya. hmm, before i started working i looked fwd to the raya packets (hahaha, who doesnt love ka-chings rite?) but now its burning a hole in my pocket (more likely my handbag) handing out some. speak of the joy of being unemployed, accepting is a lot more fun, but the joy of giving is still priceless. one thing im sure i dont and wont look fwd to is the long drive. we're traveling a day before raya, etd early morning to avoid the crazy traffic. i hope whoever drives wont drive like mad/maniac because ure either trying to drive us to our destination or drive us to our graves (God forbids) so pls be more rational rather than emotional so we all sing the happy song.

im not in the exact mood of celebration if you ask me (hahaha...tiap2 tahun mcm ni, gila kot) primarily being the mess im in right now. im trying to reposition everything in my life but its not going very smoothly and some things arent working out at all so its really frustrating which brings down a few notches of happiness (hahaha) but i hope to be able to make something work by end of the year. sometimes i feel like im at wits end that even when im fasting i cant help but curse at stuffs, hohoho lebur le pahala puasa. wishing for a better year ahead.

so, to wrap up tis prolly last post before raya, i would like to wish all fellow muslim frens, selamat hari raya aidil fitri, maaf zahir & batin. to those i've hurt intentionally or unintentionally with words or my "act of kindness", mohon maaf from the bottom of my heart. have a blessed Eid everyone, drive safe tis holiday and eat til u drop (but not drop dead ye) tis raya!