i noticed my last few updates were quite (ke??) emotional. its not like there were no happy occasions lately but i just couldnt find time to blog bout it. i've pictures, i've stories, but i've no time which is just sad because i should share the joy with the people, not only my sorrow rite?

anyway, today i find it extremely hard to speak to people bout how im feeling just exactly. although writing here i wont be able to pour the purest of my heart out, i'd still be able to vent some of my feelings one way or another (i hope).

im a lil disturbed by d fact that everyone's trying to change one another. my concern is, why cant you learn to accept things as it is first and let nature take its course before you try to do "modifications" to it. people are a lot more complex compared to systems but in any case, you cant change everything to suit yourself that is why we must learn to adapt. there's a way to everything and the key is to find the right method and the right time. im not even there yet but you're already pushing me away...nice!

trust. trust, trust, trust, trust, trust. i keep on committing the same mistake over and over again by trusting the wrong people. for once i wish i could just shout at them and not care bout these people ever again but i know it'll never happen. adoiiii, geramnyer! it's some small issue but it gets to me everytime. tolong lar pahammmm!

today is definitely my stress day. work has been taking its toll on me since last week and there's an overflow til today, left and right im hearing so many things which is really messing with my head and it got me thinking of running away (like it'd ever happen lah kan?!). if only sleeping would make all these worries go away so i could wake up with a fresh head in the morning because enough tensions already. sedihhhh.....may d coming days be brighter for me (amin).