in general, like everybody else (i think), i pretty much like to be in control of things. not dat i want to be the commander of everything, but who doesn't like for things to go their way rite? correct me if i'm wrong.

control freak? me? i hope not. a humble (id like to believe) me just like to have a say. does dat make me opinionated? pretty much and it gets worse wen i (really) think my opinion matters (hehe). i may not be all fun and adventurous due to my 'practical' thinking and wen i see things are made complicated, it irks me.

the problem with me sometimes, when im searching for words to say in my mind to channel my opinion, some inappropriate and 'extra sincere' comments comes out fr my mouth instead. this is normally d result from putting 'extra effort' in trying to prove my point. of course, when you say something, the message is meant to get across to the other person and if it doesnt, u just try harder. *bam*. damage done sometimes. oh well, life goes on.

everything comes with consequences, no doubt. im also no doubt - argumentative and defensive and stubborn - when im trying to get in control. as a strong believer of a couple of things, it is against my principle to turn my back on things i have faith in. i have people coming back to me saying i should become a lawyer (im not sure if its just sarcasm) because of the traits i possess. maybe i should (because learning curve never ends).

im not sure whether there will come a day when i do not want to be in control of anything, anymore. perhaps dat day will come when all goes well (according to me!). but until then, how is it possible to get people to think d way dat you do? hmm...guess im here to stay (and steer). if u cant stand me, better keep a distance :)