sometimes i wonder, y is it wen we want something so badly, it jus wudnt happen. wen we feel like our lives depend on it, it still refuses to work out. have we not tried hard enough? i have came across a quote that says if God doesn't answer our prayers, He has better plans for us. nobody knows for sure right?

speaking of effort, sometimes we'd slog so bad only to dissapoint and hurt ourselves more in d end. on d other hand, when we slack of course we have no one else to blame but ourselves, which is supposed to be less dissapointing right? d dose of effort to inject in any given opportunity can be really complex sometimes. does putting too much effort seem a lil too desparate? maybe, i dont kno.

der is no way we could stop from being tested in so many given ways. do we give up? yes, under certain circumstances. although some challenges only makes us stronger, too much definitely dampens our spirit. but how can we retire before we have even risen. i keep wondering...