its another july monday, jus a few weeks away from ramadhan, which means i'm gonna HAVE to start replacing those fasts i've missed. nk kata gang xde, dah ada dah kt ofis ni but i guess only d urge is missing.

outside looks rather cloudy, i tot it was gonna rain but i was wrong both bout d cloud n rain, its actually hazy! tis is bad, especially for me since i have sore throat since morning but i hope it wont get any worse.

ive had quite a few pending stuffs settled earlier which is a relief, in fact today i managed to rearrange my table files which made things look better, hopefully kurang serabut sket la kepala ni. but come to think of it, whose mind isnt in a mess one way or another rite?

anyway, i had ikan bakar with air asam for lunch, which was nice because its a break from d beef n chicken i normally have (courtesy of kak nadiah, thx!). since shikin is fasting today, i made it a point to dine in d meeting room, its not very nice to get d aroma get to a fasting person kan (faiz kata if buat mcm tu kat akhirat kena mkn rumput?!).

speaking of faiz, feels like it has been a while since we really got together. d last time was at yi qi where we both had dinner. faiz if u're reading this, we shud go out together soon k? perhaps we shud count nas in too, girls nite out jus like dat time we went to old town at yap kwan seng, remember?

i'd like to share some worries but im not sure if itd make any difference. rite here, rite now, im feeling a lil (a lot really!!) helpless. so many things in life we cant control, if fikir pening kepala, if you look around der are people who experiences worse situations, guess i've got nothing to complain about. yeah yeah, life goes on they say, but what goes on in our mind nobody cud actually tell.

anyway, last saturday a cousin of mine got engaged (congrats shaz!). she's d same age as me but i will never say we were ever close because we never were. despite d gap, im still happy for her, perhaps her time has come. what i dont like is people keep asking when's my turn. in my case, der are times when i feel the need to tie d knot but sometimes i just dont get d rush. is der an expiry date on my forehead or sumtin?? i've been out of school for about 7 years, 5 years spent on tertiary education and here i am now enjoying my freedom. my time will come, insyaallah but i've decided not to rush into things.

right now im thinking of fasting tomorrow, lets see how things go...