if kita kejam, but not mean enough to "kill", i think we're not mean after all. although when we are thrown in a position dat cud drive us to kill, by d time we get to our prey, we just cant bite it's head off, at least i think dats me. perhaps if i'm thrown in a worse position, who'd know wat i could do but dats not d case now.

hurm, i guess i'm a lil torn right now. i swear i wud've cried had he made further plans for me because it'd be quite a "heart-breaking" moment when the moment of truth comes but only one of us could be selfish in this case, and as the moment creeps in slowly, it gets a lot scarier especially considering the fact dat i've not broken anybody's heart in a long time (ok lar, nk kata i perasan pun x apa, i'm only expressing wat i feel is gonna happen). fyi, tis isnt a love story, but its quite moving for me (hish, lembik sungguh!) because the longer you are in a relationship, the harder it gets to break it.

d look on his face keeps flashing before me, the way he said those things he had planned for me (i actually saw d sincerity on his face when he said those things he said), d way he tried to win my heart back with his ideas (ok, not sure if its true or i je yg syok sendiri). ya Allah, y am i not mean and strong enough? although my plan is a lil vague, i know i cant go on like this forever because the time has come for me to move on.

so wat will it be? i wish i have d answer but i pray for the strength to face him, despite d consequences dats in for me. tell me please, wat is d best way to break up? ohh, jangan nangis nanti sudahhh! it's so sad, for me to say d least...