this is the heart rambling on a peaceful friday morning. as much as id love to rebel against so many things that has been happening for the last few weeks, i wasnt able to because im trying to be the bigger person, who can actually see bigger pictures. so fine, i get the bigger pictures already, but i dont wanna be the bigger person yet, especially considering the consequences. p/s: its ok if you dont understand what i'm babbling about, you're not supposed to anyway.

the thing with my heart is, it shatters at the slightest disappointment so caring for it is hard, especially when i have to do it myself, not dat anyone knows how to go about it any better. so i've been doing a lot of thinking these past few days, i might consider straightening out my priorities as my current ones arent working out, at all! *sigh*

i love having things to look forward to, who doesnt rite? right now im not looking forward to anything, put aside the coming island vacation, but i want something more tangible, at least for a start. maybe going back to school isnt a bad thing after all coz one of my best friend did just dat. although im not sure if its doing him any good, but i guess the milestone would be worth while. and the time frame will help me focus on just what im doing, isnt dat great? cant afford to stay adrift any longer.

if only i have somebody who shares the same exact feeling as me...it'd be easier to discuss my options.