as i write, i have a feeling that a bag of cash could definitely help me relax, honestly. some of the cheaper relaxant i've crossed of my list some time ago so now i gotta splurge on something really nice to make up for all sorts of craziness. damn!

some of the things at the top of my list includes going away on a (hassle free) vacation and buying a spanking new handbag. i haven't been treating myself to nice stuffs so i wasn't gonna treat anyone nicely for that matter.

but for now, i'm just hoping for a small miracle, not for myself...but just to help things fall into places so i'd have less headache. im feeling crappy-crap-crap and would feel crappier until i have a reason to relax! how i wish i could sleep through this phase....