my last few posts have been very depressing, which is obviously because im feeling depressed. i cant think of happy thoughts, even when i try it doesnt get to the happy part. i wouldnt say life is unfair, because i think ive had my share of happy moments in life although right now i fail to recall those moments.

i need a sign. maybe a turning point, perhaps a breaking point. sigh. i dont know really, but i dont think i could smile again.