most of the time, we human cant escape having bad thoughts about others, because we are anyway, human.  sometimes, we jump to conclusions and make our own assumptions, which is both good and bad.  bersangka baiklah pada orang lain.   more often than not, we thought negatively of the other person.  

depending on the person we're dealing with and their nature, sometimes its good (read:  to pacify ourselves) to give them the benefit of the doubt.  we read texts without hearing the person's voice and it could be totally misunderstood, if you choose to see it that way.  but what if the message communicated really is negative?  then it shall remain a mystery. 

i have given a couple of person the benefit of the doubt more often than i should because i feel helpless.  every single time i have to pacify myself trying to make up the best and most reasonable excuses for them so i dont hurt so much (and get upset for being helpless).  but i really dont know, is it worth it?  but do i have a choice?  no. 

dear Allah, please give me the strength to persevere.